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28. former grocery stooge turned accidental college admin. trying to figure my Redacted out. not here to sell anything, just here to share what i make after work. rabid WFMU fan. card-carrying member of the gay agenda. go O's.
2024. apr 22.
I've got five songs I'm going to put out as an EP, and am currently in the cover design phase of things. I did two completely different cover designs and asked the friends on my close-friends Instagram story to vote on it. 7 votes for one, 7 votes for the other. The point of the poll was to help me decide, and now it's a 50/50 tie!!!! The real work to be done will be in cleaning up the last couple of songs, but in the meantime, I've been dillydallying with the illustration software. (For those who hate Adobe on principle, I really cannot recommend Affinity Designer enough). In any case, we'll see what the results of the poll are but in the meantime, I think I have made my decision.
2023. oct 15.
I have not made use of this section recently and to the millions of fans I've disappointed, you deserve better from me. :'(( * sob sob *
Anyway, as much as I'd like to stop writing songs that sound like diary entries, I probably won't ever, just because that's what my default setting. I spent this weekend turning a sort of C+ riff into "Muscle Memory," a song that I have not posted anywhere because I'm saving for when I have a few more finished songs but I am very excited with how it turned out. Arrangement, stand-alone song...etc. And it came together super quickly! When I feel like there's a song that needs to come out, I set up my guitar and play though my laptop with headphones and watch old movies on mute. Weird, but it's a fun way to noodle through riffs while not getting bored and having nothing to look at. When the song becomes a fully fleshed out thing, it almost feels like I'm scoring the movie. I did that when I wrote "Portal Portal Portal," I watched "Valley of the Dolls." I watched "Kwaidan" while I wrote "American Kaiju" (another to-be-released song), and this time I watched "The Red Balloon" while I wrote "Muscle Memory." (Also "Swimming Lessons" was recorded formally while watching "2012." So it goes).
Maybe it's just trial and error, but already this song sounds infinitely better than the finished version of anything on "Therapy is Working." I guess I've had about a year and a half since I put that out to get better at the thing I enjoy doing, but it's still really wild to hear such a drastic change. This sounds like what I thought I was getting on that album, and listening to it now is like "Oh god what was I doing!?" but I guess that's the nature of trying to improve your skillset at something. Growth is wild. So it non-growth. It's all crazy. I need to write more songs.
2023. aug 12.
The intent here is to have a maybe running log of things I'm working on, which at the moment is just this damn website. It would be massively embarrassing to come back to this in another four years and have it just be this one post, although that wouldn't necessarily be the worst thing. I did a lot of cleanup today.
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In the interest of making things interesting, here's a draft I'm working on called
Dream House
I feel really good about this as a song, but the rhythm part is so involved that I'm kind of intimidated. I want the rest of the song to be as fun to play as the intro riff, and to find something that works will take a lot of patience and mistake-making. I also have been trying to keep my desk clear, so to record anything else, I have to haul all of my equipment out of my closet and set it up. I think I'm just being lazy because that would take me five minutes, but there's that mental barrier there. IDK why I'm even explaining all of this to the void. Maybe someone can relate!